Very early morning, shortly after 6am and I was wide awake.  It’s a gorgeous day outside, a wonderful day to celebrate Canada Day.  It’s also the first day of a short vacation for me.  My radio did turn on as I was lying in bed Nickelback’s song “Gotta be Somebody” came on the radio:

[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JtxpcQaSR0k]This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren’t enough
So I´ll be waiting for the real thing.
I’ll know it by the feeling.
The moment when we´re meeting
will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I`ll be holdin’ my own breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one that I’ll spend forever with

`Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
‘Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
There’s somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Tonight, out on the street out in the moonlight
And dammit this feels too right
It´s just like Déjà Vu
Me standin’ here with you
So I´ll be holdin`my own breath
Could this be the end?
Is it that moment when
I find the one that I’ll spend forever with?

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
‘Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There´s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
There’s somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

You can´t give up!
Lookin´ for that diamond in the rough
You never know but when it shows up
Make sure you´re holdin` on
‘Cause it could be the one, the one you´re waiting on

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There has gotta be somebody for me
Ohhhhhh.

Nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Nobody wants to be the last one there
‘Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There has gotta be somebody for me out there.

It’s a reminder, a reminder of what I want, part of my dreams do include this.  I realize that as much as I like ‘distraction’ he’s no where near where I am and that probably wont change in the near future. I need to remember that and I need to continue looking forward.  So as I look forward to my trip, I’m excited about seeing the distraction, I’m looking forward to some great dances and challenging classes, I am stepping forward as I always do to these events making the choice that I am going to have a delightful time. I’m looking forward to meeting as many people as I possibly can and coming home refreshed from the break and slightly less burned out. And while I don’t know what’s happening in this area of my life, all I can do is make sure I’m whole, strong, healthy and self confident and that means living each day as it comes.