Tonight was the first Showboat of the season. I didn’t know how it would go. But I had a great night. The lost friend was there, and it was the first time I saw him since he betrayed me and proved that he doesn’t truely value me (when my grandma died).
I didn’t know how it was going to go. But I was professional, did not show anything that was personal or emotional. I was also pretty happy.  He was hovering and quiet, came up when I was talking to some friends. Later he asked me to dance, asked me how I was (My answer: Great, thanks), and what was new. I said ‘everything and nothing’. So he asked what the ‘everything’ part was.  I made the decision back as I was dealing with my grandma’s death, that my friendship is availble to others, but not him. As I said then “I’ve lost nothing, but I’ve gained the truth; he’s lost my friendship”.  We danced twice, and that was fine. No conversation beyond that first one — wait, I did ask for more dance venue plan information — but otherwise we didn’t chat.
The other thing I realized is that I have freedom. In the past, seeing the lost friend chatting on and doing his passive aggressive hit on on a ‘his type’ girl, I’d feel hurt. He did that tonight, I did catch the view of it. And my response? Right through to my core it was ‘MEH’. I couldn’t find it in me to care, in the least. So yes, tonight was a night with good dances, and a realization that I have found freedom.