I’ve been feeling sick this week, don’t really know what’s wrong, aches, pains and fever.  Nothing respiratory.  As a result I’ve had no energy and don’t really want to be studying.  What I really want is support, partnership and help.  I can’t really get help from my family as their health isn’t great and I don’t want them near me if I’m sick.
I’m happy with being in school (overall at least — it’s leading me in the right direction, that is…), but I just wish I had support and help.  I realize that there’s nothing wrong with being single at this stage of my life, and with the average life expectancy getting close to 81 years old I’ve got lots of time.
But I’m still feeling lonely.  I’m reminded of things I’m missing this weekend, and of all the reasons I’m missing things.  I’m reminded of it as I really would love classmates to sit with and review for this assignment, but I don’t really have that option.  I have a number of friends in the program, and one in particular who I’d get together and study with, but she’s had her own stuff happen and isn’t available for assignment reviews or anything really.  Other friends in the program? They weren’t interested in doing a group review.
So I feel lonely, unsupported.  And really, at the moment, there’s little I can do about it beyond getting through this assignment, and eventually figuring out how and where to meet some new people.  Sigh.