They are poor combinations. I need to find what’s good in my life. I need to figure out how to enjoy life again. Options seem to be disappearing. So now I’m left with the same choices I was at the start, without the option of disappearing from painful situations that are here.
I struggle with dancing. I haven’t been since January.  I should go, but part of the reason I haven’t been going is because of the lost friend. I know most of my friends think I should cut him out, but I don’t see how I can do that unless I leave. I want to leave.  Tonight I should go for at least a little while.   But I’m not sure I’m ready to go and to smile and be energetic and happy. Especially after last weekend. Maybe I need to go with my original plan, that includes splitting up the dance scene.
For the moment, though, it’s dinner with a good friend. Afterwards I will figure out what I want to do.