Long Weekend
I had a dance weekend in Portland. Amazing dances. Fantasitic dances. Horrible weekend. The lost friend was a complete #@$@@. I hated it, I want to be treated well, I deserve to be treated well, don’t want the lost friend back. But the reality is that my heart isn’t emotionally uninvolved with him, as much as I do have feelings for another guy. So watching the lost friend hit on another girl in front of me hurt. It hurt like crazy. Especially since I know he’s not over his old girl friend. But he was insensitive and rude. Cruel even. I called him on it, quite intensely and rudely. We ended up yelling at each other for a while, talking and hopefully clarifying things. He actually responded with ‘Oh, I didn’t think you cared’.
I don’t think that the conversation is done. We got together tonight to chat. We didn’t chat. Well, we talked. He knows about the options. He knows more about what’s going on. It was good. I mentioned at the end that we hadn’t specifically finished our talk — he asked if there was something specific. I commented that it hadn’t seemed finished. But I also mentioned that I didn’t know how to bring it up again. He invited me to the traditional breakfast. I was honest that I needed it to be normal at dance, spend time one on one first before that would happen. I also mentioned that I missed it.
But I will say, that I may not want him back, may not want to be treated like dirt like I was. But, it will wreck me if he gets together with another girl — at least before I find a good guy who lives closer than 3000 miles away.
This Sucks.
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A great scenario « The Chronicles of Christina… on this Journey called Life…
[…] people to hang with, but this time most are going to Portland and after my experience with the Portland event in March I didn’t really want to be with a tonne of people from home. I in no way blame Portlanders […]