A few years ago I signed up for an online dating site.   I decided to try it for 3 months, or maybe it was one month. I don’t really remember. Anyhow, I think it was 3 months — to give me the opportunity to try that method of dating, and to say that at least I gave it a shot rather than constantly negating that as a possibility.
I had 150 matches (it’s eHarmony, for those who are wondering).  Of those matches I communicated with maybe 20 of them? One became a regular communicator for several months, though he lived too far away to ever meet.  I do know that I have gone through a number of transformations since then. I know that I’m not the same person — in many aspects.  Most of the changes I think are good. My self confidence is up, I’m at peace with ‘who’ I am more than I’ve ever been before, and I’m learning to take care of myself in the midst of family issues.  Some changes, some people would argue are not so good — though I’m inclined, perhaps, to disagree (others may think it’s a very positive change) — my worldview for example. I am no longer apologetic for what I want, for my choices, I can accept who I am and the choices I make. I can accept the associated consequences too. I think.  But, part of that is my worldview shift. That shift, the changing perspective on spirituality (and to be blunt, being pretty ticked off with God at the moment), is something that may cause some in my life to pause with concern.
Several weeks ago, a friend of mine was sitting with me and we were chatting about life, men, relationships, and the idiots that seem to surround me (okay, to be fair, that’s probably singular) and she started helping me fill out the personality profile again. A new one, not the same profile or account that I’d used before.  I have just finished the profile, and filling out my responses.  I’ve closed 82 matches, I have 39 active, 27 in my ‘interested’ tab, one in my ‘maybe’ tab.  In a week, not yet a member, I’ve already surpassed the number of matches I had in my old account.  In my old account, I’ve left my settings as they were, and not a single new match has been generated.  I haven’t decided if I’ll pay for the system again — probably not, to be honest. But I might change my mind.
But it does beg the question… Have I changed this much??? I think the answer is yes.