“It’s not a sacrifice when you’re doing what you love”

This is a quotation from a TV show — Extreme Makeover: Home Edition. I had it on as I cleaned my bathroom.  What do you love? What’s your passion? I’ve been asking those questions myself. I wrote a profile, a personal statement. It’s not one I can share, yet, with everyone. But I’ll post it on a separate “passworded” page – click on ‘About Me’ and it’s there. But you need a password. It’s not ‘private’, but due to the reasons I can’t share it, I need to keep it protected. But, if you know me in real life, comment on this post and I will email you the password. And I’m trying to decide. The forks before me. There are so many personal statements I could write. I wonder if this one should be realized, or can it be realized in a way I’m not expecting?
I learned today that the forks will need to be ironed out sooner than I was expecting. In many ways, I want them ironed out soon, but it’s also a lot to sort out and soon. There are many questions that need answers. It’s a tough thing to try to sort out, because I like my life — personal, professional, community — relationally it’s been tough but I’ve had a lot of time to deal lately, and I’m feeling pretty good. Free, relaxed, relieved and realizing that I can’t blame myself.
So for what it’s worth, as I try to decide which fork will help me to find what I love. Find that ‘call’. My one goal for 2009 seems like it will definitely be true: that my life will not be the same on Dec 31, 2009 compared with Dec 31, 2008.