I’m sitting at my kitchen table, making my first batch ever of homemade ice cream, and I’m thinking about my weekend.  I decided to go to Blues Underground, as usual.  It was a night with many beginners, but I still managed to have dances with some surprising leads.  Due to situations in the past few months, I decided just to be flaked out in the back, which was nice, because it helped with catching up on sleep, a little bit.
I almost stayed in Seattle, but didn’t know how I’d get back on Sunday, so I decided to go home after Blues Underground.  After sleeping, and a fantastic dance class, I got ready and went right back to Seattle. It’s definitely time to get a Nexus pass, because the number of questions I’m sometimes getting these days.  And it’d be more efficient.
But I ended up going down. The party was a fantastic party. I had a number of amazing dances! I had some fantastic fun playful dances, steamy dances, quiet dances and just general fun times.   I also realized that I am really in a ‘unique’ place emotionally. It’s not that I’m in a bad place. Not at all, I’m quite content.  But, I’m at a very different place than where I was 6 months, or even 4 months ago.  It’s not that I’m upset by my response, in fact, just the opposite. It’s just a different response than I would have expected.  Fortunately it’s not a response that particularly directly impacts me right now, so I have time to think about how this affects me — if in fact it does.
I came home mid-afternoon and went out for dinner with my family and now it’s time for bed so that I’m ready to face work and all the crazy schedules of this next week. Oh, once my ice cream finishes mixing…